I probably should have started with this, but I couldn’t let the momentum of creating the site and posting my first couple of posts be slowed down by too much thinking. So, fourth post in and here I am, writing what should have been my first. First off, I’m not a writer. I failed school. I have dyslexia, ADHD, and Aspergers. And for 2 decades I was depressed. That, my friends, is what you call a metal clusterfuck. So if anyone actually does read these, do excuse my writing style and grammar.
I’m 45 in 3 months and attempting to drastically change and improve my life. Whether it’s a rebirth, restart, rebuild, a change of course, midlife crisis, awakening, or I’m just a really late bloomer, it is what it is. I finally feel free of the significant mental, emotional, and physical burden of depression – I finally feel ‘unchained’ from its restraints and free to live life on my terms.
Admittedly, I’m doing now what I probably should have done in my early twenties, but due to the circumstances that wasn’t really an option. And to be honest, it didn’t happen so I won’t dwell on it. I can’t look back, regret, or get angry with what did or didn’t happen. I need to enjoy today, be grateful, and look to the future with excitement and possibility. My task is to improve little by little, to work daily on the things that will help me achieve my goals, to become a better man, and live a more fulfilling life – one step at a time. And here is where I will write my story.