What do I want from doing this, from documenting my journey? I have spent decades wanting to improve myself, my life and my circumstances. And for whatever reason, it never stuck. I never achieved my goal. Depression and ADHD obviously had their role, but those were the cards I was dealt. If now is the time I feel ready, feel confident and undeterred, then now is cool with me. I’m on a mission to improve. And WHEN I make that happen, I want to have documented every part – what worked, what didn’t, what I could possibly go back on and tweak. I want to try and understand it. Write it down, break it down, and hopefully use it to help others.
Also, writing each day, getting out what’s in my head and nailing my thoughts down in written word is a great exercise. My ADHD brain whizzes information around in my cluttered, cloudy head at 100mph. Writing down my ideas, thoughts, and feelings clears a part of my brain of that information and makes it a little clearer, like a kind of meditation. Just like having a clean room helps clear (or ease) your mind (at least it does with me), the same is true with getting thoughts out of my head and writing them down.